I am all moved in and ready to live here at this address. My roommate came in town yesterday with her dad and well, he did not approve of our sketchy neighborhood. Long story short, we emailed a request to terminate our lease and are now looking for a new house. Please pray for favor and mercy. We are pretty frustrated and stressed with this whole circumstance but are confident that God will provide and protect us regardless of what happens.
I will write again with the longer version (maybe), or at least an update as soon as I can.
We have internet here finally so it's really awesome! :)
~Emily :)
Friday, August 19, 2011
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
My Alabaster Box and His Mercy
I have been listening to "Alabaster Box" by Julie Meyer on repeat for the past few weeks. I can't get enough of it. Giving my all to Jesus is a desire in my heart, but it is not yet a reality. I want it to be, because He is more than worth it! He paid the ultimate price, Himself, for me. Why shouldn't I give all that I am (which is really all He gave me anyway) back to Him? Why aren't I, what is stopping me? Pride and selfishness. Yep, that just might sum it up almost completely! Lord help me!
As I prepare to move back down to Kansas City (yet again:)), I am having to face all these issues with my attitudes, my heart posture, my intentions, etc. He is so kind and gentle with me through it all. Every moment of stress, every thought of frustration, every evil thought, all of it. I so desire to be like Jesus,and I know He is faithful to help me! He is so merciful! I cannot say enough about Him, my savior, my friend, my Lord, my Daddy, my all! :)
What is your alabaster box? What does it look like? What does it feel like? What is holding you back from giving your alabaster box to Him?
These and many more are the questions I will be meditating on for at least the next few days! I love long roadtrips by myself, it gives me time and an outlet to hang out and talk all I want to Jesus! :)
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"Alabaster Box" by Julie Meyers - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8RF2MXNPhpI
"Mercy Said No" by Cece Winans - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_SjhKJgqGg&NR=1
Check these songs out and be blessed!
~Emily :)
As I prepare to move back down to Kansas City (yet again:)), I am having to face all these issues with my attitudes, my heart posture, my intentions, etc. He is so kind and gentle with me through it all. Every moment of stress, every thought of frustration, every evil thought, all of it. I so desire to be like Jesus,and I know He is faithful to help me! He is so merciful! I cannot say enough about Him, my savior, my friend, my Lord, my Daddy, my all! :)
What is your alabaster box? What does it look like? What does it feel like? What is holding you back from giving your alabaster box to Him?
These and many more are the questions I will be meditating on for at least the next few days! I love long roadtrips by myself, it gives me time and an outlet to hang out and talk all I want to Jesus! :)
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"Alabaster Box" by Julie Meyers - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8RF2MXNPhpI
"Mercy Said No" by Cece Winans - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_SjhKJgqGg&NR=1
Check these songs out and be blessed!
~Emily :)
Monday, August 8, 2011
God is GOOD!
I knew this next post would tell of His goodness! I just was of little faith and hope last time. :)
It is so silly that I let myself get so worried and listen to those stupid voices telling me lies about His goodness! He is my good father and He always provides for me. He never leaves me, never has, and never will!
By the time I showed up to my appointment to sign the lease with the realtor on Friday morning I was a wreck. Stressed out, having had numerous anxiety attacks, and little arguments with my roommate in my frustration. 5 minutes after I arrived I was walking out of the office shocked at what had just happened.
Looking down into my hands which now held a key to a house and papers with important phone numbers and information on them I nearly fell to my knees right there on the sidewalk! I am so amazed at how good my Daddy is to me! I have not been fully obedient to Him this summer, I had let things come between us, I had fallen multiple times, and Yet He loves me still... Yet He blesses me still... Yet He provides for all my needs...Yet He shows me undeserving mercy and more than enough grace...and so, so much more! I could barely walk, I could barely talk, I could not stop smiling! Even though I only had less than 20% of what I owed, He made a way to extend the deadline for the money and I still got to sign the lease and get the key! Maybe I over-reacted and freaked out over nothing...(ok maybe not maybe)...but He is so good! He is so gentle and kind and never criticizes me when I act like a kid and throw a tantrum!
This past weekend was ...crazy!
The first night we stayed at one of my old roommates' house and Emma and I went to the prayer room at 6am...there's a first time for everything. Then, at 10am I went to bank to take out as much money as I could to go to the realty office at 11...and, well, you know the story! :) After that, we went to my new house (!) and checked it out, took inventory, and unpacked my car. Then, I called the utility companies and set up appointments with each one...I was on hold with the water company for over 45 minutes! It's crazy how that experience made me feel like an adult! :) They have yet to get back to me... Then, on to PeachWave (FroYo bar! yum!:)) to celebrate! The rest of the weekend was filled with crazy adventures, enduring a non air conditioned house (:( ), going to IHOP-KC services and prayer room, and more!
I am so blessed and in awe of what happened this weekend. My roommate and I are still dealing with little details of our house and we will be for at least 10 months, but more so in the next week or two. But, I have a good, GOOD Daddy who loves me and what more can I say?! Even through the stressful and frustrating times, I still know that my God is good, He loves me, and He will NEVER leave me or forsake me! But I still need so much of His help, always, all the time! "Oh for Grace to Trust Him more!" :)
God is Good, All the Time!
~Emily :)
It is so silly that I let myself get so worried and listen to those stupid voices telling me lies about His goodness! He is my good father and He always provides for me. He never leaves me, never has, and never will!
By the time I showed up to my appointment to sign the lease with the realtor on Friday morning I was a wreck. Stressed out, having had numerous anxiety attacks, and little arguments with my roommate in my frustration. 5 minutes after I arrived I was walking out of the office shocked at what had just happened.
Looking down into my hands which now held a key to a house and papers with important phone numbers and information on them I nearly fell to my knees right there on the sidewalk! I am so amazed at how good my Daddy is to me! I have not been fully obedient to Him this summer, I had let things come between us, I had fallen multiple times, and Yet He loves me still... Yet He blesses me still... Yet He provides for all my needs...Yet He shows me undeserving mercy and more than enough grace...and so, so much more! I could barely walk, I could barely talk, I could not stop smiling! Even though I only had less than 20% of what I owed, He made a way to extend the deadline for the money and I still got to sign the lease and get the key! Maybe I over-reacted and freaked out over nothing...(ok maybe not maybe)...but He is so good! He is so gentle and kind and never criticizes me when I act like a kid and throw a tantrum!
This past weekend was ...crazy!
The first night we stayed at one of my old roommates' house and Emma and I went to the prayer room at 6am...there's a first time for everything. Then, at 10am I went to bank to take out as much money as I could to go to the realty office at 11...and, well, you know the story! :) After that, we went to my new house (!) and checked it out, took inventory, and unpacked my car. Then, I called the utility companies and set up appointments with each one...I was on hold with the water company for over 45 minutes! It's crazy how that experience made me feel like an adult! :) They have yet to get back to me... Then, on to PeachWave (FroYo bar! yum!:)) to celebrate! The rest of the weekend was filled with crazy adventures, enduring a non air conditioned house (:( ), going to IHOP-KC services and prayer room, and more!
I am so blessed and in awe of what happened this weekend. My roommate and I are still dealing with little details of our house and we will be for at least 10 months, but more so in the next week or two. But, I have a good, GOOD Daddy who loves me and what more can I say?! Even through the stressful and frustrating times, I still know that my God is good, He loves me, and He will NEVER leave me or forsake me! But I still need so much of His help, always, all the time! "Oh for Grace to Trust Him more!" :)
God is Good, All the Time!
~Emily :)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Weekend of Change
Well, as of sometime after 11am (CST) on Friday I will be a co-renter of a house! I am so excited, nervous, frightened, happy, and many more emotions! I am most nervous at this point about how the money will come in for it month to month and more urgently, this Friday when I have to pay rent AND deposit. Yes, God has ALWAYS provided month to month everything I need, so why should this be different? Well, it's way more money than I've ever had to pay in one day...except for tuition.
Yet, here I go worrying, even though I know sometime in the pretty near future I will be on this blog site once again sharing a testimony of His goodness! So, in advance I'd just like to dedicate this post as a Thank You to God! He has done SO many good things in my life, blessed me abundantly and best of all: HE LOVES ME!
How Great is our God!
Amen and Amen.
~Emily :)
Yet, here I go worrying, even though I know sometime in the pretty near future I will be on this blog site once again sharing a testimony of His goodness! So, in advance I'd just like to dedicate this post as a Thank You to God! He has done SO many good things in my life, blessed me abundantly and best of all: HE LOVES ME!
How Great is our God!
Amen and Amen.
~Emily :)
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Trust
That simple five letter word. It can be built, broken, shattered, restored, earned, gained, lost, found, etc. It is a necessary foundation in every relationship. It is not 'the' foundation, but part of it, a very important part. Trust is difficult and sometimes easy. It is most easy to trust and put trust in God, the Creator of all things, the eternal One, the Alpha and the Omega, the root and offspring of David, the I Am, the King of Kings (need I go on?).
Yet, so many times we choose to not.
Why?
I find myself asking this daily... 'If He's never failed me before, WHY would He now?' 'If He never breaks a promise, WHY do I not believe Him now?' 'He has always provided for all my needs, so WHY am I worrying about rent?' 'WHY don't I trust the One who is always trustworthy and always will be?'
Yes, as I prepare to move back down to Kansas City, in a couple weeks, I find myself staying up late (note time stamp on this one) when I am on days, worrying about how to pay upcoming bills. God is my good father, I firmly believe this. I know He will provide, but how? I daily notice and acknowledge my utter unworthiness of His unending goodness and grace towards me. Yet He will provide? HOW?
Any and every time I begin to think about worrying the hymn: "'Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus" pops into my head and is no doubt a sign from Him to me telling of His goodness towards me.
Yet I doubt. Yet I have little faith Yet I don't trust Him.
But, instead of beating myself up over being a human being and failing to trust the One who never fails and is always good, I will lean on Jesus yet again and sing: 'Jesus, Jesus, how I trust You! How I’ve proved You o’er and o’er; Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! Oh, for grace to trust You more!' I will proclaim in until it reaches the inmost part of me and I truly, undoubtedly believe this to be true...oh for grace to trust Him more! Amen.
~Emily :)
'Tis so Sweet to Trust in Jesus
by Louisa M. R. Stead, 1882
Yet, so many times we choose to not.
Why?
I find myself asking this daily... 'If He's never failed me before, WHY would He now?' 'If He never breaks a promise, WHY do I not believe Him now?' 'He has always provided for all my needs, so WHY am I worrying about rent?' 'WHY don't I trust the One who is always trustworthy and always will be?'
Yes, as I prepare to move back down to Kansas City, in a couple weeks, I find myself staying up late (note time stamp on this one) when I am on days, worrying about how to pay upcoming bills. God is my good father, I firmly believe this. I know He will provide, but how? I daily notice and acknowledge my utter unworthiness of His unending goodness and grace towards me. Yet He will provide? HOW?
Any and every time I begin to think about worrying the hymn: "'Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus" pops into my head and is no doubt a sign from Him to me telling of His goodness towards me.
Yet I doubt. Yet I have little faith Yet I don't trust Him.
But, instead of beating myself up over being a human being and failing to trust the One who never fails and is always good, I will lean on Jesus yet again and sing: 'Jesus, Jesus, how I trust You! How I’ve proved You o’er and o’er; Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus! Oh, for grace to trust You more!' I will proclaim in until it reaches the inmost part of me and I truly, undoubtedly believe this to be true...oh for grace to trust Him more! Amen.
~Emily :)
'Tis so Sweet to Trust in Jesus
by Louisa M. R. Stead, 1882
- ’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!”- Refrain:
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!
- Refrain:
- Oh, how sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to trust His cleansing blood;
And in simple faith to plunge me
’Neath the healing, cleansing flood! - Yes, ’tis sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just from sin and self to cease;
Just from Jesus simply taking
Life and rest, and joy and peace. - I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.
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